The problem with

living in a small European country that gets the American television series (good as well as bad) months after they have been shown in the US (if at all), is - is that if you grow to like one of them enough, you want to read fanfiction (at least if you are me), but you cannot - if you want to avoid spoilers.

I remember reading fanfiction for Buffy - a series that was something like two seasons behind in Denmark at some point. I remember reading about Spike long before I saw him on the screen. I read about Angel becoming Angelus and then Angel again, about going to Hell and returning and leaving - all of it before I saw it. I read about Spike in Xander´s basement before the first glimpse of the Initiative. I read about Buffy dying - and some very confusing stuff about some girl called Dawn - long before it ever occured. And I hated it - and yet, and yet I read, because I wanted the stories.

And now I am watching Lost, and falling for this series (after what - seven, eight episodes (I haven´t counted)) - and I so badly want to read. But a great part of the pleasure in this series (at least for me) is the slow unravelling of the secrets of both the people and (hopefully) the island - and I know, I just know, that if I read a fanfiction written by someone who has seen the entire season, that something is going to be written there that has yet to be revealed. Maybe not something big, but still.

And so I wait for every Monday to come so I can see an episode. And I do not read fanfiction. And I wait...